Sick and Tired

As I'm sure some of you have noticed, I haven't been writing much lately. This is for a number of reasons, but the main one is that I feel like absolute crap every single day. I'm exhausted for no good reason, and I don't even have the energy to think of anything to write about. My entire body aches from my neck to my feet. Literally--I am not exaggerating one bit. I feel like I'm 80 years old, not 34. I have also been having troubles focusing and paying attention to anything for an extended period of time. I know this is because I am being under-treated for my thyroid disease, and yesterday I decided I have had enough of this doctor I am currently assigned to.

I called the endocrinology clinic and basically demanded in the nicest way possible--which for someone who is suffering from hypothyroid symptoms is not very nice at all--that I get reassigned immediately. Within two hours, I got a phone call from a different doctor and we talked for almost 20 minutes about all my symptoms and the struggles I have had finding a good doctor since moving here 2.5 years ago. This doctor seemed knowledgeable and asked lots of questions, unlike the doctor I saw back in November. He reviewed my test results from the blood work I did recently and told me that my thyroid hormone levels are indeed too low--which is incredible considering his colleague just told me last week that everything "looked good" when I called to get the results of my blood test. I do not understand how two doctors in the same clinic practicing the same specialty of medicine can have completely opposite findings regarding my blood test results. Neither of us could come up with a logical reason for it, and that doctor is on leave until next month. How convenient for him. I will be following up in a couple weeks to see what happens with him. I only saw him once, but I knew from the get-go that he was no good. And surprise, he's not!

Alright, enough about that. Another thing on my mind lately that has had me preoccupied is Hubby's deployment. A couple weeks ago I wrote about how things change constantly in the military (you can read that post here) and sure enough, a couple days after I wrote that post things changed yet again. Now we are back to the original deployment date of June. I really, really hope that they don't change it again because I'm not sure how much more of this emotional roller coaster I can take. I know Hubs is getting frustrated too--we kinda just want to get it over with already so we can move on. We are excited to see what will happen when he gets back next year, because we will be due for a move. I love being near the ocean and there's tons of stuff to do here, but I am ready for something new.

Hubs is currently gone doing deployment training for three weeks. What's really interesting is that he is up in Wisconsin just a few miles from our hometown! I have to admit that I'm kinda jealous he's so close to home and might get to visit friends and family while he's up there. As much as I hate that town and all of it's drama and the bad memories it brings to mind, I do really miss my loved ones. It's hard being so far away from everyone sometimes. There are days I wish I could just go to my parent's house to sit and talk to them, or go to my brother's house and hang out at his bar. Every time we miss a holiday, birthday party, or other special event I always feel a little homesick. Hopefully I will be able to make it up there soon for a visit.

I've also been working on a couple projects, and I hope to be sharing them with you sometime in the near future. Stay tuned for updates!

By the way, this is my new friend at work. His name is Felix.
He likes hanging out in the fake tree by my desk and watching me work.

~Fluffy Girl~